Really, I Am....

....sorry.

Monday - November 10 2009

Surprisingly, everything turned out to be more than okay. I have gotten over my problem with him and her. There never was a problem, anyway. REALLY. It was just I, along with freaking Paranoia sweeping over me.

When I got home, I told her I am so sorry. Well, I know she had no idea of what I was feeling. But, I couldn't help but feel guilty. It was like living anightmare, no joke. Gladly, she accepted my apology and told me: "Don't worry, Jem. Let's start a new beginning." and "It's okay, penguin."

It's amazing of how kind and at the same time fun and cheerful her personality is. This is what made me envy her. It's over now.

There.

On Mediocrity and Absolute Gayness.

Sunday - November 8 2009

The praise and worship went well, except for one intro, when our drummer made a mistake so obvious that the congregation looked at all of us with extreme confusion and made me forget what we had to perform.

It was my first time to perform using the acoustic guitar, which made me nervous because the acoustic guitar's sound is very distinctive.

After church, I went to Raymund's house. Still, I find it daunting to think that his mom is vexed at me, which in fact, I think she is.

Raymund asked me if I could chaperon him to the salon. It took me exactly 45 minutes to wait. I didn't mind, though. I enjoyed laughing at the whole "cutting process". Gay. Very GAY. The waiting, sitting, and peeking experience altered my dejected mood into temporary aptness.

We went to Jollibee after.

Together, along with his brother, went to Philam townhomes' basketball court for our church's sports festival. I enjoyed it. Everyone did.